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All of my free time has been spent watching Spongebob. I wake up early and can’t go back to...

Mon, 04 Apr 2011 00:10:25 -0400

All of my free time has been spent watching Spongebob.
I wake up early and can’t go back to sleep. What do I do to pass the time? Spongebob.
Get home from work, need to kill some time. What do I do to pass the time? Spongebob.
Get home at 4am, have to work at 10. Sleep? Nah. Four episodes of Spongebob.
Help.

Last night and tonight were lovely.

I will try to fix you..

Mon, 21 Mar 2011 03:45:00 -0400

When you think you’re having the worst month ever, you need to think of all the good things that have happened. Tonight I went out with two of my lovely boy fraaans; started off with coffee; wal-mart; strippers; karaoke; tim hortons; tim hortons washroom as my friend vomited. I never vent really, and the only place I really do so is on tumblr. (It feels sooooo good to just write things out.) I need an actual journal or something.
I don’t see why people feel the need to use me. It’s like I have vulnerable stamped on my forehead or something. Am I really that gullible to everyone’s bullshit? Do I honestly just fall for every little thing someone says or wants me to do? You know how you have those friends that pick on you once in a while? Yeah, I have one too. Tonight kind of crossed the line when he repeatedly smacked me in the back of the head as I drove his drunk-ass back and forth across town without one single thank you. Tonight I realized I miss someone I really shouldn’t. Someone who used me for five months, and then one day just stopped texting me. Thanks. One of the worst decisions I have ever made was keeping you around the second time. Tonight I realized I am being a terrible friend to the ones I should be holding on so, so tightly to. I miss our late night walks, our late night talks, our bike rides, our music sharing, or novel sharing, your fantasy tales, your non-fiction tales; I miss our friendship. I miss who I used to be. I miss being happy.

I’m sorry for this. You don’t need to ask me how I am..

asdfghjkl;'.

Tue, 15 Mar 2011 00:44:39 -0400

Deleted you outta my life, bitch.
Maybe now you’ll understand that you can’t just have me whenever you want me/need me.
I’m a very spiteful person right now. I was honestly so happy and carefree when you were gone, and then you come back and I get so tense and I just feel so repulsed by the thought of you.
Fuck you. Seriously.

To everyone else: you are all very loved and in my heart, and I really wish you’re having a wonderful evening and not letting some jerk get you down, because I’m certainly not.

Lots of love.

& this what I'mma do 'til it's over.

Mon, 14 Mar 2011 23:45:15 -0400

Currently getting my hair did, which means I did it; which means I currently have more hair dye on my neck and face than I do on my head. Amazing, I tell you.
Today was great. I slept until two and pretty much did nothing other than clean my room, fill my tank up with gas, deposit my fatty income tax cheque (this officially means I’m debt free. THANK YOU!) aaaaand go to the mall to buy some new sandals and see two lovely friends o’ mine while doing so. Oh, and I washed my baaaaaby!
I’m very tired for some reason right now, yet so very awake.

I think I’m going to watch a movie tonight. I need some suggestions. Hello, IMDB.

G’night y’all.

Don't I know you better than the rest? All deception, all deception from you.

Mon, 14 Mar 2011 02:07:29 -0400

Woke up today at seven so I could be at work for eight. Seven was actually six today; not a fan. Work went surprisingly well and quick - not usual for an eight hour Sunday shift! Today was the highly anticipated PHC BBQ. I have to say, I was very impressed. Got to hang with some of my lovely, former classmates. Bought some burgs, some fries, some sodas, and a nice ice cream cake from DQ. Got to see some kid too, you know. Yeah, swooooooooon. We all watched Megashark vs. Giant Octopus..
Clearly the best decision of our lives.
Anyway, so after all those shinanigans I get invited to bingo with a couple of my favourite lads. I end up running into a lovely former friend I hadn’t seen in a while and another friend of mine that I’ve recently started talking to again. I absolutely LOVE being reunited with people I’ve had a certain bond with. I don’t know, it just feels so.. fresh and warming. I’m weird, deal. So yeah, I’ve been thinking about this kid lately that I used to hangout with a while back while I was seeing someone, and then tonight at bingo after seeing two of my old good friends, I walk by him and pretty much see the biggest smile cover his face. Um.
I don’t know what to say. I’m just kind of really happy with how things in my life are going right now. Needless to say, I’m going for coffee on Wednesday night. I’m excited. I haven’t talked to a certain someone for an entire week as he’s currently out of the country, but he comes back tomorrow, and I just feel as though once he’s back I’m going to be in a terrible mood all over again. I don’t know why I do this to myself..
I’m happy when I know he’s not around. I guess it’s because I know I don’t have to worry. I shouldn’t have to worry. Why do I worry? Ugh.

I’m stupid. Today was great. Every day is great.

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Sat, 12 Mar 2011 23:39:01 -0500

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Sat, 12 Mar 2011 23:38:08 -0500

I'm going to ruin Lasers..

Sat, 12 Mar 2011 15:16:53 -0500

That’s pretty well the only album I listen to when I’m at the gym, and I’m going to get so sick of it - I just know it. Obviously listening to Teenage Dream is the right thing to do in my situation, right? Right..
Just got back from GT. No, not Giant Tiger - I wish. I had a lovely tan. I think I’m addicted to the warmth of it. I could care less if I get darker now; I just go so I can have a twenty minute nap. That’s so bad. I shouldn’t admit to that.
My workout was lovely. Half-hour cycle, half-hour elliptical (yay for getting my endurance back!), half-hour arm/ab combo. C-c-c-combo breaker! Yeah, it was fairly decent. My arms are kiiiiiilling me though. Help?
I have to work at five tonight. I don’t want to.
I have to work at eight tomorrow. I don’t want to.

I love how I’m complaining about going to work now. Next week I’m going to be wishing I had these shifts.
Helloooooooo sixty-hour work weeks!

Save me.

My boyfriend calls & says he's coming over,

Sat, 12 Mar 2011 10:43:43 -0500

sayhellotolovelybones:

& I’m all like,

So I decide to surprise him when he gets here & be all like,

He walks in & looks at me like,

& I’m like,

And he’s all,

Then for an hour we’re just like,

Then afterwards we’re like,

Then the rest of the time he’s here we’re just like…

Artificial Horizon: This one goes out to the baby girls in a rush growing up in this crazy world..

Fri, 11 Mar 2011 21:48:23 -0500

Artificial Horizon: This one goes out to the baby girls in a rush growing up in this crazy world..:

twosailsonasound:

Time to go for my cycle, baby!
I want my leg to heal, heal, heal so I can run, run, run!

Felt like I was stuck in a rut today. You have your good days, and then you have your bad days. Today wasn’t even bad, I just felt so.. blank.
I hung my old corkboard up today. All…

I know, I know. I’m being really silly.
I told Stoppa about all this and he’s just like, ‘You can keep cycling, just don’t run because you’re pretty much going to kill your leg if you do.’
So.. I am taking it easy. I just feel so lazy when I do so now.
I do needa rest though, lol. WHERE WERE YOU LAST NIGHT?!
:[

This one goes out to the baby girls in a rush growing up in this crazy world..

Fri, 11 Mar 2011 19:26:36 -0500

Time to go for my cycle, baby!
I want my leg to heal, heal, heal so I can run, run, run!

Felt like I was stuck in a rut today. You have your good days, and then you have your bad days. Today wasn’t even bad, I just felt so.. blank.
I hung my old corkboard up today. All the memories from two years ago. It was nice going through them again.

I’m very reminiscent today.

I might just break the chain.

Thu, 10 Mar 2011 22:51:09 -0500

Worked tonight from eight until one.
Worked with Anna from one until three.
Obtained a second job with Zedd Customer Solutions.
I’m a telemarketer. Don’t hate me, please.
I feel really excited, upset, and scared all at the same time. I cut my hours back at Independent. I have twenty next week. TWENTY.
The store is my second home; my baby, if you will. I love her, so much. Say goodbye to supervisor/courtesy shifts. I hate cash.

Um, had a fairly great workout tonight:
Hour cycle.
Weight training AND upped my weights!
Half hour cycle.
Forty year-old man calling me Ashley Simpson.
The two lads I enjoy being at the gym with were there. Score.
Good gym night.

I just got home from bingo. Just got home from having an extreme heart-to-heart with a good friend. She’s lovely, and I’m going to miss her oh so much.
I’m about to go out for coffee with two of my other great friends. They’re so beautiful to me.

What else does tonight have in store? I’m supposed to attend a party but I’m just not feeling up to it. [If you’re reading this Vicky, you know that I love you! :]]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, VOCKO!

Media Tibial Stress Syndrome

Wed, 09 Mar 2011 20:54:49 -0500

… Can suck a dick.
I’m in a bitter mood.
I’m on a losing strike, I’m on a winning streak. YEAH RIGHT.
K, so like I wake up and go to work and pretty much today was an okay day, but it could have been better. I ate SO much today because I thought I was going to have a killer workout tonight. Oh, I had a killer workout alright. So killer, that my calf muscle decided to explode. I was at the gym for an hour and a half. AN HOUR AND A HALF.
That doesn’t accomplish anything; that and I was a huge fatty today. I feel disgusting.

In a way, I’m kind of glad to see myself actually caring about my health and fitness, because honestly a month ago I wouldn’t have cared about all this. I want to cry. I was doing so well, I say! Tomorrow will be a better day hopefully. I’m currently icing this bad boy in hopes that it will be in working order tomorrow, because I have a lot to catch up on.

In other news, I really need to find another job. Not that I want to quit Indie or anything, I just really, really need more money. Twenty-nine hours is certainly not enough to pay my bills, have spending money AND save for school. Just not happening. Honestly considering going back to Zedd. 40+ hour weeks and an hourly wage more than what I make currently - doesn’t seem so bad to me.

Also, Lupe Fiasco is still rockin’ my shit. I love you, man.

Currently eating mini eggs..

Wed, 09 Mar 2011 18:06:40 -0500

& watching MTV Live.
I’m like, so gross right now haha. WHY DO I HAVE TO CHEAT?!

I’m going to the gym at seven. There’s a crazy storm outside. I’m crazy inside. Win?

Definitely.

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Tue, 08 Mar 2011 18:03:42 -0500

Hmmm. I want to know your namenamenamenamename.

Tue, 08 Mar 2011 17:46:47 -0500

Remember yesterday when I said I had the best workout of my life?
TODAY I HAD THE BEST WORKOUT OF MY LIFE.

YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAH!

I love adrenaline rushes. Haha.

Girl, I want you to know I can't get you out of my head.

Tue, 08 Mar 2011 13:02:00 -0500

Woke up.
Realized today is March 8th.
Realized today is the release date of LASERS!
DOWNLOADDOWNLOADDOWNLOAD.
Breakfast shake/flatbread and banana.

I am halfway through Lasers right now. Lupe Fiasco, please come over. PLEASE.
Honestly some of his best work so far, in my opinion. I love it.

I’m in such a great mood again today, and I’ve only been awake for half an hour. Today I have to go to the mall and buy the physical copy of this fantastic album. I just couldn’t wait! Like, I had to wait until it was actually released before I could download. I just couldn’t spoil it for myself! My friend and I pre-ordered it online; he ordered this huuuuge package (because he’s like, the biggest fan of all time) and being the sweetheart he is, he ordered me the vinyl! So excited. He’s in Mexico, so I have to wait until he gets back. Worth it? YEUH. I got way off topic. Anyway, I have to mall, then gym, then probably clean my room, then cheap night movie! Sounds like today can’t go wrong, you know?

I love my life lately.

Today, nobody cares//But tomorrow, they will.

Mon, 07 Mar 2011 18:49:35 -0500

Woke up in the greatest mood ever today! Cause I’m a go-getter, go-getter, go-getter.
Um, so yeah. I’m really, really happy right now. Perhaps because I know I can’t get myself into trouble this week? Yeah. Well, at least one form of trouble anyhow..
I renewed my tan package today. Needless to say, I’m getting b-r-o-w-n. I dig. It’s a change compared to my ghostly complexion. Also had the best workout of my life today. Set a couple PRs. NOT BAD!
IIIIIIIIIIIIIIII am so wired right now it’s ridiculous. I like feeling happy again. I haven’t felt this way in a couple months so, it’s nice.

loooove.

Mon, 07 Mar 2011 18:45:38 -0500

loooove.

iiiiiiit's go time!

Sat, 05 Mar 2011 11:35:19 -0500

self-explanatory.