All of my free time has been spent watching Spongebob.
I wake up early and can’t go back to sleep. What do I do to pass the time? Spongebob.
Get home from work, need to kill some time. What do I do to pass the time? Spongebob.
Get home at 4am, have to work at 10. Sleep? Nah. Four episodes of Spongebob.
Help.
Last night and tonight were lovely.
When you think you’re having the worst month ever, you need to think of all the good things that have happened. Tonight I went out with two of my lovely boy fraaans; started off with coffee; wal-mart; strippers; karaoke; tim hortons; tim hortons washroom as my friend vomited. I never vent really, and the only place I really do so is on tumblr. (It feels sooooo good to just write things out.) I need an actual journal or something.
I don’t see why people feel the need to use me. It’s like I have vulnerable stamped on my forehead or something. Am I really that gullible to everyone’s bullshit? Do I honestly just fall for every little thing someone says or wants me to do? You know how you have those friends that pick on you once in a while? Yeah, I have one too. Tonight kind of crossed the line when he repeatedly smacked me in the back of the head as I drove his drunk-ass back and forth across town without one single thank you. Tonight I realized I miss someone I really shouldn’t. Someone who used me for five months, and then one day just stopped texting me. Thanks. One of the worst decisions I have ever made was keeping you around the second time. Tonight I realized I am being a terrible friend to the ones I should be holding on so, so tightly to. I miss our late night walks, our late night talks, our bike rides, our music sharing, or novel sharing, your fantasy tales, your non-fiction tales; I miss our friendship. I miss who I used to be. I miss being happy.
I’m sorry for this. You don’t need to ask me how I am..
Deleted you outta my life, bitch.
Maybe now you’ll understand that you can’t just have me whenever you want me/need me.
I’m a very spiteful person right now. I was honestly so happy and carefree when you were gone, and then you come back and I get so tense and I just feel so repulsed by the thought of you.
Fuck you. Seriously.
To everyone else: you are all very loved and in my heart, and I really wish you’re having a wonderful evening and not letting some jerk get you down, because I’m certainly not.
Lots of love.
Currently getting my hair did, which means I did it; which means I currently have more hair dye on my neck and face than I do on my head. Amazing, I tell you.
Today was great. I slept until two and pretty much did nothing other than clean my room, fill my tank up with gas, deposit my fatty income tax cheque (this officially means I’m debt free. THANK YOU!) aaaaand go to the mall to buy some new sandals and see two lovely friends o’ mine while doing so. Oh, and I washed my baaaaaby!
I’m very tired for some reason right now, yet so very awake.
I think I’m going to watch a movie tonight. I need some suggestions. Hello, IMDB.
G’night y’all.
Woke up today at seven so I could be at work for eight. Seven was actually six today; not a fan. Work went surprisingly well and quick - not usual for an eight hour Sunday shift! Today was the highly anticipated PHC BBQ. I have to say, I was very impressed. Got to hang with some of my lovely, former classmates. Bought some burgs, some fries, some sodas, and a nice ice cream cake from DQ. Got to see some kid too, you know. Yeah, swooooooooon. We all watched Megashark vs. Giant Octopus..
Clearly the best decision of our lives.
Anyway, so after all those shinanigans I get invited to bingo with a couple of my favourite lads. I end up running into a lovely former friend I hadn’t seen in a while and another friend of mine that I’ve recently started talking to again. I absolutely LOVE being reunited with people I’ve had a certain bond with. I don’t know, it just feels so.. fresh and warming. I’m weird, deal. So yeah, I’ve been thinking about this kid lately that I used to hangout with a while back while I was seeing someone, and then tonight at bingo after seeing two of my old good friends, I walk by him and pretty much see the biggest smile cover his face. Um.
I don’t know what to say. I’m just kind of really happy with how things in my life are going right now. Needless to say, I’m going for coffee on Wednesday night. I’m excited. I haven’t talked to a certain someone for an entire week as he’s currently out of the country, but he comes back tomorrow, and I just feel as though once he’s back I’m going to be in a terrible mood all over again. I don’t know why I do this to myself..
I’m happy when I know he’s not around. I guess it’s because I know I don’t have to worry. I shouldn’t have to worry. Why do I worry? Ugh.
I’m stupid. Today was great. Every day is great.
<3
That’s pretty well the only album I listen to when I’m at the gym, and I’m going to get so sick of it - I just know it. Obviously listening to Teenage Dream is the right thing to do in my situation, right? Right..
Just got back from GT. No, not Giant Tiger - I wish. I had a lovely tan. I think I’m addicted to the warmth of it. I could care less if I get darker now; I just go so I can have a twenty minute nap. That’s so bad. I shouldn’t admit to that.
My workout was lovely. Half-hour cycle, half-hour elliptical (yay for getting my endurance back!), half-hour arm/ab combo. C-c-c-combo breaker! Yeah, it was fairly decent. My arms are kiiiiiilling me though. Help?
I have to work at five tonight. I don’t want to.
I have to work at eight tomorrow. I don’t want to.
I love how I’m complaining about going to work now. Next week I’m going to be wishing I had these shifts.
Helloooooooo sixty-hour work weeks!
Save me.
& I’m all like,
So I decide to surprise him when he gets here & be all like,
He walks in & looks at me like,
& I’m like,
And he’s all,
Then for an hour we’re just like,
Then afterwards we’re like,
Then the rest of the time he’s here we’re just like…
Time to go for my cycle, baby!
I want my leg to heal, heal, heal so I can run, run, run!Felt like I was stuck in a rut today. You have your good days, and then you have your bad days. Today wasn’t even bad, I just felt so.. blank.
I hung my old corkboard up today. All…
I know, I know. I’m being really silly.
I told Stoppa about all this and he’s just like, ‘You can keep cycling, just don’t run because you’re pretty much going to kill your leg if you do.’
So.. I am taking it easy. I just feel so lazy when I do so now.
I do needa rest though, lol. WHERE WERE YOU LAST NIGHT?!
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